Reflection of Providence

Oh how I wish I could just put my Top 10 Books I LOVE post up. However, I have simply been inundated with this topic today. It leaves me trembling a little bit. I’m uncertain of what is coming. Are their dark clouds overhead? I pray I can see them as blessings. I pray I can see God’s work in my life through tragedy. Suffering…it comes to all of us in little or great packages. The older I get the more I see it never really ceases. It rubs me raw. Sometimes I don’t think I can breathe under the weight of it. It leads to snap judgments about my life, about God, about my journey here. I don’t embrace it…I rebel against it. It is like someone taking a Brillo pad and scrubbing until I’m raw. It is why I numb myself, turn my feeling inward, and never let anyone get to close to the core of who I am. I keep one arms length away to any thing that will cause pain. Just in this last week this line has been fed to me by more than one person, “This is just life!” Whether it is a headlight that has

So, this entry will be comprised of four sections (I have just decided to make each section a separate blog…so you will be getting each installment in the days to come. Aren’t you excited?). Each section will be a top 10 list. The categories are as follows… Top 10 Things I LOVE Top 10 Books I LOVE Top 10 Movies I LOVE Top 10 Television Shows I LOVE I am going to keep with the theme of substance…these books, movies, or shows will have some relevance to faith, life, or a higher purpose. I LOVE making lists. It is part of my OCD…so, I hope you find some enjoyment in this little exercise…if not, I will ;) Top 10 Things I LOVE 10. Walking in Nature: I think nature is one of the most exquisite kisses God gives us. It speaks volumes of who He is. It tells of the Greater Story. It screams majesty, beauty, and adventure. 9. Reading a Good Book: There is nothing more delicious than being engrossed in a lovely book…the beginning with its possibilities, the ending when you’ve discovered all the se

I truly feel life is a journey. When I say I like the road curvy & the windows rolled down, I mean that. This life is a deep wonderful adventure to be experienced with the Great Creator. The Lover of our Souls wants to take us to depths we have yet to go. We can sail the high seas, leap buildings in a single bound, move mountains, be a part of the Sacred Romance, with little more than the faith of a mustard seed & a willingness to follow. There is also a Great Deceiver. The liar and his cohorts seek out the spaces of our hearts that are most vulnerable. We can easily replace adventure for monotonous living. The day’s drudgery of “we musts” quickly overshadows playing tag with a great lion. The day to day grind numbs us. We are frankly bored. We don’t see the big scope. The great an amazing love story unfolding before us. When we get into these spaces it is easy to doubt God. I mean how can you trust something you don’t heartily believe in. The world becomes reality…blurring the

There is a pulsing within my soul; the need to put quill to paper, to share my thoughts, my heartbeat, and the very essence of my soul through the written word. As is often the case, when I pull away from the Lord, turn my heart from His still small voice & retreat into my own desires & self-righteousness my creative word flow ceases. I sit down; fill my quill with ink, and…nothing! Draft after draft inevitably ends up on the floor. Nothing sounds right to me. Every grammar error is screaming at me. I feel I have no talent whatsoever. In the last year I have gone through an extremely dry spell. It isn’t one of the most barren lands I’ve visited during my writing venture, but dismal nonetheless. I think it is because this time I didn’t care. I was slowly growing accustomed to my new surroundings. Abandoning any hope of people growing, learning, enjoying, and being moved by what I wrote. The terrain was rugged, the sky a purple hew of perpetual twilight (which is indeed one of my