Reflection of Providence

I will not be blogging for the next two weeks. Please understand this is not because I'm struggling or depressed, but because I'm trying to grow and honestly I need to step back and revaluate this whole blogging thing. I've gotten way to consumed, and the swirling voices in my head need to be silenced and I need to get back to the One True Voice. Thank you for your time and patience.

I just want to clarify that these entries are my thoughts and feelings of things I'm either struggling with or that God has graciously given me provision with, or things I'm excited about. I do not apologize for anything that I have written in these blogs, in fact I stand by them. They teach me, remind me how rich my life is, and full the capacity is for growth. I say this because of a response I got from one of my blogs that was both disturbing and saddening. Please be cautious when you read my blogs and read them carefully, and please be cautious not to judge. I appreciate you honesty, it is food for my soul, and I need honesty and truth in my life, it truly is refiner's fire. I know that the people that truly know the inner working of who I am know that I love life to the fullest, that I try daily to humble myself before the Lord, and that I'm merely human like anyone else. Please remember to be respectful when you read and comment on my blog. I also apologize for an...

As I read certain things, or do certain studies I'm compelled to write, thoughts, ideas just well up in me and I simply want them to all pour out. However, these things aren't always easy to articulate. Sometimes, you are left to feel these things never being able to fully express your emotions. I have just finished reading one of my favorite books again, Redeeming Love, by Francine Rivers. I have lent it to a friend at work and she is already half way through the book herself. I love Francine as a writer in general. She cuts to the deepest part of human emotion. God has truly given her this as her ministry. I have now begun her book "Atonement Child" and it proves to be equally as good. I felt like I would write a little something about the book Redeeming Love. I have put an excerpt of a dream that Angel (Sarah) has when she comes back under captivity of her former, for lack of a better word, pimp on the Writer's Corner. I am going to use it to blog today. I fee...

Hey Guys! Just wanted to drop a line to say that some of my same old symptoms have come back, and my body is struggling. Please pray for me. I just don't feel like going to the doctor right now, and I'm sort of frustrated with all of this. Pray that God will be my Great Healer, and that He will guide me with what I need to do. Thank you!

A Miracle Bloomed... Today in general has been a really unexpected miracle in my life. Valentine's Day is such a blah day for me, but today little acts of love were blooming everywhere I looked. First, I got a beautiful card from my friend Jamie on Sunday, which I proceeded to put in my office. Then, my sister Michelle left me to Valentine's with my morning stuff that I was to take to work, and I opened them while eating my Chik-Fil-A breakfast at work. It was wonderful. Then I got hugs from both Michael and Kevin from work wishing me a wonderfully Happy Valentine's Day. Now, Michael is gay and Kevin has a girlfriend, but the act of friendship from them both meant so much. They are such infinite blessings. Then, we are planning a birthday party for a girl, Heathre, at work who has never experienced a real birthday. So, a true giving day. Then, the absolute icing on the cake. Do you have those people in your life that you feel so honored that they choose you as a friend? Tha...

In my daily writing promps this question came up and I'm curious what you think. I honestly not only asked the question, but also wrote a story about it, I'm weird and I love it, so please enjoy, and please do not think me obsessive and weird, all though I have to admit I'm a little of both... Who would you like to hang out with for a day and why? Well, of course it would be Melissa Gilbert! I would like to know her beyond who I perceive her to be. She is my hero for many reasons, I would like to know more. I want to share our narrative with one another. If you would like to read the story I wrote about spending the day with Melissa please check it out on the WRITER'S CORNER ! Just for those who don't know I have already met her, but I haven't got to spend quality time with her...like any of you care! Anyway, goodbye, write more soon!

I am not sure how many people I have actually shared this with, I'm not sure that I have shared it with anyone that I haven't got to speak with face to face, but my aunt and uncle Selena and James Hamm submitted a letter about their life to their local ABC News Affiliate to win a $100,000 dollar home makeover...and they won! Selena has Multiple Schlerosis and is unable to do much for herself, James has stayed right by her side for over 10 years and they are an amazing success story. They simply shared their hearts, and it touched a cord with the people at the news station. They got to stay a week in one of the best hotels in Charleston. James, a gourmet cook, got to prepare a meal with a well known chef in Charleston, Selena got complete pampering for a day, a complete makeover of her own. They just moved back into their new home yesterday...some of the things include a whole new wardrobe for both of them, a 42 inch plasma TV over the fireplace, hardwood floors throughout the h...