Reflection of Providence

Alright, so you know when you set out to do something and feel like God is telling you are on the right path and you get very excited about the situation, and you feel like things are lining up nicely, and while it is hard to let go of some things, you know that in the end you will have a closer walk with the Father and that is all that really matters. Well, for all of those who read my last entry those things are all still so true, these are the things that I still am striving to achieve, but lets just say that over the past week satan has come in with forgetfulness (like forgetting to pray walk the store) or allowing my head to be so full of ridiculous scrolling vivid thoughts that I just want to shut the projector off. I've found myself distancing myself from people this week. I didn't even come to work on Tuesday because I felt so bad. I mean I am having some physical issues, but a lot of it was emotional. Now, I'm not in a dark place, I'm just sort of frustrated...

"Two things I ask of you, O Lord; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, "Who is the Lord?" Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God." - Proverbs 30: 7-9 An Excerpt from my Lord is My Shepherd Journal: November 19, 2003 My Gracious Lord, My Beloved Savior, My Redemption and Mercy Giver, Oh how my heart aches when I think of what I did to you last night! You were aching to spend time with me, to love me, to teach me, and I longed for that as well. However, I turned my back and chose a lesser easier road that left me feeling more empty and worthless than I did before! I feel in my heart of hearts You were trying to protect me from that, but once again my older more well-worn path was simpler. I am so very sorry and I truly seek Your forgivness for what I did!... ...Oh Father! How I desire for...

Check out the Dear Frankie Website! As many of you know I fell in love with Gerard Butler as the Phantom in Phantom of the Opera. At 6'2" with green eyes, and dark hair (two things I've always wanted) and a delicious Scottish accent who wouldn't think that this man was simply divine. However, there is so much more than meets the surface, and this is truly evident in some of the choices he has made in his career. Many of you who have been reading my blog know that when I first saw the Phantom of the Opera I simply fell in love with the magic of it all. I feel that that film was as close to a "production perfect" piece as you can get. From beginning to end all cast, crew, director, producer and all inbetween did a phenomenal job. I was drawn into the story through the interweaving of the images, the dynamic of the Phantom, and the rich characters that infused every orface of this piece. This love triangle was given such a passion and depth that I had never seen...

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A Little Muggin for the Camera!

"I'm so pretty. Yes, I am!"

Hello Everyone! Well let me just say that my weekend has been full of insanity and great exhaustion(msp?) (as you can tell I cannot spell ::SNIFF::) Anyway, let me share with you first, for those who care anyway, how our Midnight Magic Party...or what we employees at Barnes and Noble like to to call...Midnight Madness Party. Last week was simply insane...all forms of news media were calling me and asking me the same repetitive questions. I was on Channel 27 morning news Friday, Channel 18 and Channel 36 both came out and did pieces on the "madness" of it all. I have to say that I absolutely about fainted when I saw the camera guy for Channel 18, can we say tall, dark, handsome...and YUM! Plus he was SOOO nice! Michael, our cafe manager who happens to be "gay", and I were simply gushing over him. I couldn't even open the back door, he distracted me that much. Then, Channel 36's camera guy was a little "cutie" himself. In a moment of shere insanity, ...

I know that once again I'm posting some superficial stuff, but I just wanted to introduce you to some really talented people, they are KANE. They are a country/ rock-n-roll group with slammin' talent. I simply love them. Lead singer and front man Christian Kane is also an actor. He has been on Angel, Into the West, Second Hand Lions, Just Married, and many other movies, usually minor rolls...he is getting ready to star in a new TV series on CBS! He, in my personal opinion is great at everything he does...the band pretty much speaks for themselves. They are phenomenal. I don't know if you guys care, but I thought I would give my boys some props! Mustang Girl, I think you would really connect with this group... Click on any pick and it will link to their site! Well guys that's about it, I promise more indepth things to come...I'm journeying through Sacred Romance and Emotional Purity and the book of Mark...good times, God is good! Tomorrow is HP...so PRAY!

HOT in a Hoodie(msp?) Christian on the left, I believe the dude on the right is a member of the band, but I can't be sure!

Sing Country Boy...SING! He is so cute!

The Boys Rehearsing Before Going on Stage! Christian is in the blue bandana, and Steve is playing the guitar, I think Steve is very attractive too!

NORTH CAROLINA SCHOOL OF THE ARTS: SCHOOL OF FILMAKING I am absolutely and totally and completely TERRIFIED!!!! This school absolutely looks incredible. The way that they structure their study (at least from a first glance) is exactly the format that I desire. They run their program as close to a real life setting as possible. This is how I want to learn the craft. However, this means that it shall be very very very HARD!!! Sometimes, I feel so incapable and stupid! I feel like I would get into a program like that and sink; hook line and sinker! I just feel like my skills would be pathetic compared to everyone elses. I know I haven't even applied yet and I'm talking this way. This is one of the biggest reasons why I haven't pursued anything. I've been scared that I'm just not cut out for this fast paced, male dominated, cut throat business. I hate this insecurity. However, the longer I stay out of school, and the little I learned during my years at UK, make me reali...

I just realized that I haven't really put anything of great substance or of personal interest on my blog for awhile. God really hasn't lead me to do so, and I'm enjoying the easy relaxing summer that has come on me. I'm trying to read more, and I haven't been all inspired to write a whole lot, which makes me a little sad. So, I thought for a few down moments at work I would catch you up on the very exciting life of Melissa. Please no yawning or fluttering eyes... So here is a rundown of what has been going on thus far... Last week was the pantemount(msp) of what we like to call VBS (enough said!) This week has had its own drama. Wednesday my Assitant Manager and a really good friend was rushed to the emergency room. She is a diabetic and she had a diabetic attack...she was feeling like she had the stomach flu, so she wasn't eating, therefore she wasn't taking her Insulin, therefore her sugar got way out of control...it peaked at 480!!! Needless to say she i...

Five things I miss from childhood (in no particular order): 1. Probably the childhood thing I miss most is camping...there is nothing better! Swimming in the lake, boat rides, smokey campfires, fresh popcorn cooked over an open fire, getting up early, hiking, hay rides, exploring, ghost stories, family, endless days, and wonderful folklore swirling around and about, contentment, food, joy, laughter...I miss those moments so dearly! 2. Summer...I mean summer days when you were a kid seemed like they lasted forever...it was a never ending day of fun! Swimming, riding bikes, catchin lightning bugs, rollie pollies (hope you guys know what those are), vacations, fresh lemonade, delicious watermelon eaten right off the rine (faces all squishy and messy), Vacation Bible School, Thunderstorms, Birthdays (mine and my baby sister's b-day are in August), NO SCHOOL, no responsibilty but to have fun and explore and soak up some sweet sunshine. 3. Imagination...I still have one of the biggest im...

Which Way Do I Go? Well, needless to say I have been VBS'n all this week and have literally had time for nothing else. My days consisted of getting out of bed around 6:20am needing to leave the house at 6:30am to get to work by 7am, work until 3:30pm, come home, get a shower, eat a bite, and head over to the church from 6-9:30pm each evening for VBS. It has been the most challenging tiring experience. Yet, one of the most rewarding. I assisted with the 1st and 2nd graders, and while they definitely tested their boundaries, they quickly captured a place in my heart. Especially, one of the little "terrors" Colby, while not always on his best behavior, he was animated, sweet, and funny...his father, our music director, calls me "Missy", Colby found it quite funny to call me that as well. Last night one of the older boys was treating him really badly, and he got me to try to stop it. I really didn't want to deal with this boy, so we had the pastor take care of i...