Reflection of Providence

Well as you all know by now I went to the "Living Proof Live" event this past weekend in Knoxville, TN. I just have to say something about Beth Moore...she is amazing. I was a little hesitant. Is she going to be preachy? Is she going to be lofty? 'Cause this lady is smart! What I found was a gifted, witty, desperately funny, grounded, strong, capable woman who has a heart of gold. She didn't make you feel like you were in a soldout arena, a number among thousands, she made you feel like you were having dinner in her living room. "Oh you precious souls!" "I got a darlin' letter!"...no matter what event I've been to never have I felt more comfortable with someone. I want to read more of her stuff, and I want to go to more of her conferences. I had forgotten how parched my soul had been, what good praise and music could do, and the simple act of swaying back and forth with my hands raised could do for me. I was filled with so much, and I reali...

There is so much to tell you, but not tonight! I'm trying to catch up with all you passionate and busy bees and let me say I haven't gotten to all of you lovely creations yet, but I will catch up I tell you. Then, do I have an outpouring of truth for your life...God is so Merciful and Loving! You know though I won't kid you, satan has been trying to beat me down. It is amazing what can happen from Friday night...on cloud nine, praising God from the depths of my soul, feeling His presence wash over me...to Monday night, feeling hurt by something that happened on the community forum on Ransomed Heart (I want to be ingrained in the ministry and I think I'm trying to hard)...to feeling lonely and uselsess...did I mention I'm trying to hard...10 miles wide and an 8th of a mile deep (you will get that when I post on what Beth said! In the end God is merciful, and I missed all of you dearly, but you know what...I've missed God even more, and I still miss Him. Why do I ...

Hey Guys! I'll be leaving this afternoon to go to Knoxville, TN for a Beth Moore Conference. My sisters are traveling today to Memphis, TN because my baby sis is thinking of living there. So, I just ask for prayer during our travels...a lot of family members will be out on the road this weekend. Thanks guys and will write more when I get back!!!

An Invitation Worth Considering... Oh my goodness chickadees I just finished this 100 page book by David Gregory and let me just say that you all should check it out. It probably would take most of you under an hour to read. I had my reservations at first, but in the end this was a profound and simply crafted book. It really made me think of things in new ways...like the gift of eternal life, and just how much God wants to spend time with us...it also gives you a eye opening way of looking at someone who is lost and allowing you to be more bold in witnessing. I just really loved it! So, I thought I would pass it on to you guys! (It is truly amazing how God's grace is sufficient and that His mercies are truly new every morning!) Love! Love!

I have read several of your posts this morning and have heard a lot of hurting voices. I too woke up this morning loathing life and feeling beaten and weathered. God is up to something big, and I know that many of us are being sifted like wheat...I want you all to know that I love you dearly and I will be praying for you fervently...I am best comforted through song, so I would like to leave you with a couple of songs that are strong impacts on my life. The first is by Sara Groves, one of my two favorite singers, it is truly what I wish we all could do, and how I feel about each and every one of you. The second is by my second favorite artist Todd Agnew, it is called Martyr's Song, and it was written for Ted Dekker's book with the same title (I think Ted is going to be my new fav Christian Fiction author)...the first time I heard it the veil was literally parted and I, for a brief moment was in the presence of the most high. I hope these words encourage you and bless you hearts....

Getting To Know Me....by way of Gayla 5 things I plan to do before I die: 1) "hopefully" know the love of a husband and be blessed with children! 2) Travel to Jerusalem 3) Lose the X amount of weight I need and keep it off! 4) Get Published! 5) Live in the midwest (I'm really letting God control my career ambitions, I'm wafting, so that is why I didn't put anything related to a film career down!) 5 things I can do: 1) sing (or at least I love too, I make to claims that it sounds good :) 2) cook - I'm one heck of a cook, I love to cook! 3) organize anything...and everything 4) I believe that I can write well 5) dance (again I make to claims that it looks good, in fact I'm pretty sure it doesn't, but I love it, it is the only time I'm not afraid to make a fool of myself, well that's not true, I can make a fool of myself everyday...I'm ending this rant right now!) 5 things I cannot do: 1) speak a foreign language (would love too one day) 2) fi...

So, I love my pastor because he is so awesome and always allows God to speak right through him and directly to my heart. He had a wonderful sermon Sunday before last on prayer. Here is what he said... "On their release, Peter and John went back to their own people and reported all that the chief priests and elders had said to them. When they heard this, they raised their voices together in prayer to God. "Sovereign Lord," they said, "you made the heaven and the earth and the sea, and everything in them, You spoke by the Holy Spirit through the mouth of your servant, our father David: "'Why do the nations rage and the people plot in vain? The kings of the earth take their stand and the rulers gather together against the Lord and against his Anointed One.' Indeed Herod and Pontius Pilate met together with the Gentiles and the people of Israel in this city to conspire against your holy servant Jesus, whom you anointed. They did what your power and will had...

We had a "I'm a Princess Party" at work yesterday which I hosted...over 50 princesses showed up. It was like a mad house. We ran out of everything, princesses were complaining because someone didn't get something that the other did. My legs are so sore from squatting and standing taking pictures to pacify the princesses. It makes me realize how we must seem to our King...we are constantly wanting, complaining about what we don't get, and think we are the fairest in the land...how annoying...however our beautiful Lord looks at us as Princesses indeed, beautiful and captivating! I'm Princess Pooped! God bless you ALL!

(First, thank you to every single one of you who left a comment concerning my testimony...I am blessed...and I know it!) So, let me start off by telling you a somewhat funny story! Two nights ago I was talking to my sister that lives in Nashville on the phone. I was in our living room/ dining room walking around. It's one of those things I do when talking on my phone at home, I pace. I also feel the need to mention that I was pacing in the dark! It is also important to note that my Mother has accumulated many rugs to cover up our beautiful hardwood floors. Anyhew! I was walking around and "SQUISH!" I stepped in it! Oh yes folks, Dog Poo! I screamed, my sister laughed, my dog got in trouble, it stunk, I wimpered and went and washed my feet! Now, it is also important to note that my dog is not a puppy! He is up in his years, in fact we often call him old man, and he is very potty trained. However, my Mother has been away for two weeks dealing with family matters, and he has...

Well guys! Here it is! My testimony, or His testimony in my life! It is quite long...sorry...but I've divided it up in sections so hopefully it will make it easier to read. I hope that you will see Him fully reflected in this and that what ever ounce of me resides will be taken out I know this is long in coming, but I hope you enjoy.... Lord Father, this testimony is truly a testimony of You…it is not about me… What a deep and beautiful gift to be intimately known by the Creator of the Universe…let me share a narrative with you, a true love story if you will…let me share with you the moment the Lover of my soul captured my heart leaving me forever changed. I was born August 27, 1980 in Rome Georgia. I grew up Southern Baptist with a caring Mom and Dad and two amazing younger sisters that mean more to me than words can express. I was a very awkward child and struggled in my formative years with very low self-esteem and lack of self identity! Since I can’t take you through every sing...

Well, as of late I have had like 20 or so ideas come into my head for things that I want to post...just too much going on in my little old head...there is always to much going on in my little head, sometimes I wish my head would shush and let me have a moments peace...oh well! Good News...I'm no longer in Anguish!!! God is faithful and merciful. My Mother is currently back home in Georgia dealing with the circumstances with my family member. This person had to go into Winwood, which is a rehab facility, at least it isn't state funded institution, and hopefully this person is getting the help they need. I just feel a complete sadness over this...I was listening to Todd Agnew (who else) and there is a part in one of his songs that talks about God creating children...and I thought of this family member as a young child, care free, running in the tall grass, being kissed by the face of God, and my heart just fell to pieces. I just ask that you keep my family in your prayers, especi...

Well, that was the first thing I was going to right about today! I was going to pour out my soul over the troubling things that happened to me over the weekend! I was going to roll around in my anguish and spread it like a plague throughout! I was feeling lower than pond scum this morning. Tormented by my circumstances and I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs for some relief. However, in reading the blogs this morning I have been humbled, inspired, and realized...once again in an almost painful realization that it truly is not about me! Am I still in anguish, well yes! Are there still some things that I need to let go of...Yes!!! However, God applied salve to my wounds when I asked for it and I'm humbled and amazed by it! Thank you to my dear friend Mary K for being inspired by the gracious hand of our Lord to write such blessed things about me, things I don't even deserve to be said about me, and then thank you to Gayla, Kat, and Becky for adding to the list. I am lef...

Hello Everyone out there in this grand Blog-0-sphere!!! I just wanted to take a few minutes to share with each of you what has been going on in my life as of late beyond what I've been learning about, it NOT being about me and all...all though God continually takes on a new dimension with that, and is daily whispering that truth in my ear. It is also clear to point out that satan has attacked me in great stride as of late as well...feelings of envy, remorse, even depression have crept up and caused me to go into some of my coping mechanisms that aren't of God. Each morning I wake up and go why did I do that, why did I go there with that thought or action, why am I still running to other things other than you Father...you are my protion, you are enough! Alas! I know Christ is refining me and that is refreshing. However, I have digressed long enough, let me share what has been going on with myself beginning with my birthday weekend... So, Saturday August 27th was my birthday (th...

Well, as I have been traveling over several different blogs this morning I have found that Hurricane Katrina and the devistation she caused has be heavely on peoples hearts and minds, but their was one post inparticular that really made me think...that was Tom from Effortless Grace ...I just felt the anguish in his post and I wanted to share it with all of you. I have been continually praying for those that are dealing with this aftermath, and I will be providing monitary relief as soon as God leads me where to go as he did in the Tsunami!!! But right now I would like to lift up a prayer for those in the wake of this terrible storm... Oh Gracious Holy Father, I cry Abba! Holy One! Abba! Merciful Lord! Abba! Father you formed the foundations of the Earth, you set the heavens and stars in the sky. Yet, you know even when a sparrow falls from its nest. Oh Jesus, you are compassionate, caring, and mindful of us! Lord, I feel sorrowful that I am not drawn to my knees in tears over this tra...